Sunday, December 10, 2023

UPHEAVAL

 


Foam in every wave

so measured...rising high

Aiming for the shore

in smooth descent

Everlasting music of the waves

reaching my feet

As I wait with bated breath

welcoming the touch of cool water

Waves, take away my miseries with you

when you recede to the horizon

And leave my Spirit renewed.


BLUE GIRL PINK BOY

 


It's a stereotype

that I sit under blue 

and you under pink

would you like to switch?

'cause sometimes,

I like me some pink twilight.


The stereotype is broken

when you defined it so

and now, I'm okay with pink

so long as it's just that

and not my gender

'cause sometimes

I like me some blue sky.


Saturday, July 15, 2023

ONE DAY AT A TIME





A few chance words thrown up in the air
and daggers out
clashing, dashing, smashing!

Then
deafening silence
What now?
How?

Invisible line grows bright 
filled with light
and might
Dare step over me? It challenges.

There is no need to cross
and yet, the line holds power
'cause on the other side
are loved ones lost
forever in a criss-cross
of you-first and 
if-you-can't-then-I-can'ts.

Heart and soul
do not dare
or care 
to step across  in forgiveness
Even tears stay this side
willing and living and taking
one day at a time.




 

Friday, May 26, 2023

HAPPY PLACE




Time is my own secret garden

Where my thoughts flourish

Random thoughts like the runners helter-skelter

blooming at will

Beautiful thoughts, like the roses

Some thoughts of others, their lives, their ways

Like chrysanthemums multi-colored and bright


I lie on the grass sometimes

And look up at the beautiful blue sky

Watching seasons turn

Clouds floating, white, grey -

Sometimes the sky is blue and cloudless.


I relish the rains 

bearing down on me,

making patterns as they fall...\


and I still among my flowers

In my own garden.



 



SELF-DEFEAT





Here is the fence you must cross
Clear it or go for a toss
On the other side is joyous victory
Clear it and forever be free


But wait a minute you say?
You must check the time
See if it's a dollar or a dime
Read the newspaper
All the tid-bits savour
Chat with your grandmother
Enjoy a smoke with your brother
Eat a slow and joyous meal...

Hey! What's your deal??

Why not jump the fence
What have you to say in your defence

Well...

Here is the fence I must cross
Clear it or go for a toss
On the other side is joyous victory
Clear it and I'll forever be free

Oh dear! Now, don't you see?
I'm scared of Victory! 






 

FINAL FAREWELL


As you fade away into eternity

Far away from me

Forever

Maybe never to meet again

I want you to know

that I will always cherish

all that was pure in our relationship.


Sometimes there's overlapping

and you are not who you are 

but someone who someone else wants you to be


I do not recognize the person

you have become

I do not relate to you anymore

But I wish you well

as I bid you goodbye.


Your time, My time

Our time together

Is over.

 

Saturday, May 20, 2023

UNFORGIVING


I mean it God
when I say I don't want to hurt
I don't to be unforgiving
but when someone comes along
deliberately gloating, hurting
taunting, flaunting, jaunting
counting, daunting
can you wonder that I'm pointing?
but know it's not who I am
It's my anger speaking up for me
So, God, know I mean it
when I say I don't want to hurt
I don't want to be unforgiving.


 

MENDING



who is to mend a broken heart
that weeps continuously
and all your epithets and talk 
of a higher purpose
drips down as tears
from confused eyes
that only know
they loved and lost.



 

Sunday, May 14, 2023

MAYBE?



Maybe
Milestones can be homeward
Kissing can be a bite
Laughing can be silence
Fighting can be right
Unravel can mean knitting
Red can mean it's pink
Stand can mean you're stitting
Floating can mean you sink

Maybe
The Earth can move anti-clockwise, see?
The Sun can rise in the West
And every time you say you don't love me
you can mean, "I love you, you're the best!"


 

Thursday, May 11, 2023




Much as I hesitate at the take off
I'm still galloping with the wind
flying over the fence of my doubts
my eyes on the patches of blue 
that easily keep pace with me
through criss-cross branches
enticing, encouraging
till triumphantly at the ocean
to where my soul is anchored
in blue.


 

My glass is neither half empty

nor half full.

Rich to the brim, and

just out of reach


 

Wednesday, May 10, 2023

GOODBYE MIRAGE



Goodbye Mirage
I must go
I cannot hold on to promises
never to be kept
beautiful as they are
I'll never know.

Goodbye Mirage
I cannot lie
you may be blue lagoon
but let's face it
you're just thin air
once you die.


 
 


 

DEATH



 

The hour was now

The time was day

Your thoughts eternity

And Death -

Just a moment

Leaving no time for

Philosophies

Prayers

Goodbyes


 The players move on...


For them

The hour is still now

The time is still day

Their thoughts eternity.


 A drop evaporated the ocean

Some ripples, 

and then none.

 

Tuesday, May 9, 2023

LITTLE STREET URCHINS


Ten-year-old little street urchins

little boys..

hanging around - 

voices up a tree

little dirty figures

perched on high walls

eating wild fruit.


How did they get there?

Little urchins

somersaulting into the ocean -

funny fish that are born knowing 

how to swim and dive.


Little urchins

thrive on wild fruits and leaves

play cricket

with sticks for wickets

and branches for bat

and stones for ball.


Litlte urchins...

where do they come from?

living in a parallel universe

living precariously between life and death

all the time!


But it's now past 7 in the evening...

it's time to go home

"Mummy will search."

 

CAT CALL



Cat slipped off the wall
and landed on its feet;
Nine-lived cat
lives each time - 
unlike my ninth call 
that went dead







 

Monday, May 8, 2023

RAIN AND CHAI


It's a dark, rainy day

Rain-splattered, 

I take shelter in a wayside teashop

Shopkeeper places a

steaming hot cup of chai in my hands

I gaze at closed shops across

and trees bent in the wind

Someone runs into the shop,

pulling their coat closer for comfort

and stands against wall, shaking off the water

Shopkeeper places a hot cup of chai in his hands

Gratitude and Thanks, this is all I need

Shopkeeper gives me a plate with a samosa in it

And I think,

At this point in my life

I am exactly

Where I want to be.

MONDAY MUSINGS


monday muse and musings...
if you will...
the blues...
the grind...
coffee-lingering...
the neverending stretch of week ahead...
horrid bright sunny faces
and horrid happy 'good mornings!'...
grrr!!  hate!

monday morning
deep breath -
HERE GOES!
I CAN DO THIS!!

 
slouch.


 

Sunday, May 7, 2023

PEACE THAT PASSETH ALL UNDERSTANDING




I heard voices -
Left and right.

On the left I heard
"Your words are wrong
Stop speaking"

On the right I heard
"Your God's not there
Stop believing"

To the left I heard
"You're not perfect
Stop judging"

To the right I heard
"You hypocrite! You liar!"

On the left, the fanatic screamed
"Not religious enough!"

On the right the cynic goaded
"You're just half and half"

To the left, the demon screamed
"I don't love you, you fool!"

To the right, the voice of venom
"I hate you"
The demon, a woman in his arms, scoffed
"She is the one - not you!"

On the left was deadly purpose,
"I shall see you destroyed"

 And amidst the cacophony,
I sat
Peacefully playing the harp.



 

ANSWERED PRAYER


Dear God

Where is the lake of my childhood?

Here you go my dear!

Dear God

Where is that refreshing breeze

Here you go my dear!

Dear God

Where are those trees and green grass and wilderness that I love so much

Here you go my dear

Dear God

Where are the birds i used to know the names of

Here you go my dear

Dear God

Where is the blue sky with the white clouds that I used to lie on the grass and watch float by

Here you go my dear

Dear God

Where is that first star that knew my deepest desire

Here you go my dear

Dear God

Where is the Sun

that the newborn lamb in all its innocence wakes up to?

Here you go my dear

Dear God

Where is the Moon

That I tell stories about to my grandson as I feed him his dinner

Here you go my dear

Dear God 

Where is the mist that I used to cut through to go to school

here you go my dear

Dear God

Where is that beautiful rain that came as a blessing

Here you go my dear

And how do I know it's all from you?

Look up child

I'm that formation in the cloud

Friday, May 5, 2023

REQUEST FROM A PUBLISHER

 



Dear Writer,
Please don't achieve anything in life - 
I try to be lenient, but it's all so inconvenient
Don't marry and have kids and be a husband or a wife
Don't get an education, go to school or to college
What's the point of all that knowledge?
Don't work, don't earn, don't teach
don't clean the barns or be a priest and preach, 
Don't be social and contribute
Don't have role models and pay tribute
Don't be philanthropic
Boy! That's a WHOLE OTHER TOPIC!! 
Don't, don't, don't ever write to anthologies and get published
Don't bring out books...well may be one or two
Don't be nominated and win awards
Pretend you have the flu if you do
Don't have hobbies other than to write
Don't sing, don't click, don't bite or fly a kite
And certainly don't be from Delhi, Paris, London or Ohio -
You see, I just want a non-existent bio.


FULL LIFE

 



This poem isn't
about childhood - 
fleet-footed, hair flying;

Or about school days
books, teachers and homework
plaits and ribbons and uniforms 
and pranks;

Or about teenage and first love
and first heartbreak 
and the horrific pimple outbreak;

Or about true love
marriage
children
grey hair, falling teeth
grandchildren 
and the growing medicine cabinet;

Or about a million small and big things
that go to make up a life well lived....

This poem is about
an old woman
reminiscing.