PEACE AT LAST!

it's with glee 
that i note
that you want to say so much
and can't
for once containing
your bawdy jokes
and garrulous humor
your dirty thoughts
belying your claim
of being an intellectual
oh yes! for once you are silent
and i am at peace.

MY BODY, MY SLAVE

my body, my slave

to do my bidding

you've gotta lose weight

look at the fat on your hips

mis-shapened thighs

see i've read this diet

keto, yes, atkins yes

you try both and let me know

if you even lose a bit of that fat

let me know

we'll keep at it

what? it's working

keep at it, keep at it

you're turning blue at the ankles

but keep at it

you're bleeding but keep at it

you're fading away

keep at it

you're poisoned

keep at it

you're going to die

but keep at it

whip! whip! whip!

but now you can stop

I'm depressed

you be my dumping ground

some fatty food makes me feel good

some cookies, some butter

some chicken

some french fries

also try some bleach of the face

some soothing ointment of the back

dark clothes to hide your ugly lines

do as I bid

whip! whip! whip!

CLOUDS

My name is written in the clouds

my fate is written there too,

I see it slip through my fingers

each time

to move the other way

to a destiny of its own

leaving me the bitter task

of severing the bonds

that held us together

while I shield my fragile spirit

and drift along

seeking, seeking....

and yet knowing for certain

deep within me

that somewhere

a mountain awaits

my arrival

to nestle me in its arms

Forever.

NOT YOU, NOT YOU, NOT YOU

who came in my dreams last night?

not you, not you, not you

it wasn't someone who loved me just because i was good

it was someone who took the bad

it wasn't someone who didn't love me because i was dark

it was someone who called me chocolate

it wasn't someone who thought i was brilliant

it was someone with whom i could share my stupidest thoughts, biggest fears and craziest doubts

it wasn't someone whose love yo-yoed with my weight loss and gain

it was someone who wondered why it was such a big deal - i was beautiful to him anyways..

it wasn't someone who wanted me to make him coffee

it was someone who could do that on his own while making me some too

it wasn't someone who checked my emails and wondered who i spoke to

it was someone who had his own space and respected mine

it wasn't someone who flirted every time he talked to a girl

it was someone who i could introduce to the most beautiful woman and still know for sure he loved me

it wasn't someone who wrote out my day and script for me

it was someone who let me fly but was there to catch me if i fell...

so who came in my dreams last night?

not you, not you, not you